Happiness and common sense.

Days when life feels endless and burdensome are constant, understandably in this day and age. Time taken away from personal development by forced responsibilities, necessities, and incredible struggle against the odds allow people to falter, stumble and fall. At times, even with our best intentions forward, we burden others and hurt them by trying to cling too hard. Our desperation to not lose what we think is there makes us prickly, like porcupines on alert, distrusting and frightened.

It's amazing that people survive lately. With so many people killing themselves out of desperation and fear, their mind is locked into a predesigned box, made by politicians, relatives, and friends who stuck the nails into the coffins before anyone was ready to lie in them. No one ever wants to be blamed for someone else's disastrous downfall. No one wants responsibility or to remember that there were times when they should have said one thing but said another. Sometimes the words we utter brew from spite, anger, jealousy, but I think that most of all, those hurtful or apathetic words come from casting our own iron box around ourselves, a protective mechanism with bold letters printed on its shell saying "Do not come near. I can't afford to care this much about you. It's better if I just pretend I don't see your pain because really, would you even care about mine?" and the other person casts a similar box.


Boxes within boxes, all leading up to misunderstandings and confusion. Less and less human interaction, less desire to help others. Even agencies designed to help others have preferred a technology based method of communication. Who has ever heard of not being able to see a welfare worker face to face to discuss progress? How can someone without a job, afford to use a home based internet to apply for benefits? A president with an email on his own webpage, but the words sent there fall on deaf ears... and still, more and more people dying. Over and over again. People are dying. Emergency control over the internet? What happens then? The internet is a WORLD WIDE DATA BASE. Inhibit other countries internet access just to promote oneself and to abuse the system of communication? cut...people...off...some more. More people dying.


Happiness. I wonder if my children will understand what real happiness is. I wonder if the world will be overtaken by condos where we can't even have a cat for a child to learn what it's like to cherish something that breathes but isn't human. I wonder if they'll know what it's like to lay under a tree on a hot summer day counting the beams of light filtering through the trees. Will they understand the concept of inner peace? Or will they be swarmed by the dramatic rants from teachers and politicians about their 'civil' duties as children... when will they play again. I only see politicians kids and rich peoples kids with swings in their backyard... no one I know actually has a backyard big enough for a swing set anymore.


More people dying.